Feeling as though you never belong

So, I've decided its time for a change, and now that I've started to change I've decided it needs to be more of a drastic one than a no one will really notice, change, you know? I mean if you're going to change why not change everything about yourself. Now for the crazy people who don't think I need to change, might need to come to the psych ward with me but for everyone else I'm sure you can see that I need to change a lot. I've decided to stop making an effort, if you're going to lie to me then thats your problem because you will lose me very quickly no matter who you are! Why lie about something stupid anyway, if I ask you to go somewhere and you don't want to go why is it so hard to just say no thanks or I don't feel like it, I don't have any money or just plain no. Don't worry about hurting my feelings, if it does I'll get over it a lot faster than lying and me finding out its just rude but whatever, enough about that. You'll be the one thats sorry because I don't take shit from people. I mean I have in the past I know, but we all make mistakes right? Well thats one of the new things, I don't care who you are I'll let you know its bothering me and weather you decide to listen or not is your prerogative.

I don't know what else to write, but lyrics keep enthralling me and I love them they have so much meaning. For some reason I've lost everything I was going to say, I had it right there then I waited too long and now I have no idea what I was going to say, dammit. I keep listening to the same songs over and over though and not just because I really like them but, because the words really mean something their not just there to say it but to have some meaning. I don't know how to explain it but its not just how someone sings it but its how you can relate to it. Sometimes I wonder what I would do without them...weird I know but everyone has such a different view on things going on around us so its interesting to see how they explain and see it. I don't know. I'm done though this was kind of dumb post but you'll get over it. Later.
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