I keep telling myself I'm not the desperate type

Maybe its just me. That wouldn't be hard to believe. The days aren't easy anymore. I should have known this wasn't real. You make it hard to smile because you make it hard to breathe. I know I've got to get away for "the world is not yours for the taking". It seems all of these words couldn't be further from the truth how did I get here, what did I do? Your eyes tell me lies but they make me find myself. Goodbyes are meant for lonely people standing in the rain and no matter where I go its always pouring all the same and I was crying alone tonight and I was wasting all of my time thinking about you. Makes me wish I was never brought into this place. And its days like these when all you can do is write and try to get it all out, but it never seems to work as much as used too.
I'll add more later.
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dance of life

"Let me tell you a story to chill the bones out a thing that I saw...; not aware of a presence so near to me watching my every move..."


Last night was the best night of my life. One that I never would have thought to ever happen. It's like literally living in your dream, except for you feel it all a lot more and its not like wishing for it or wishing on some birthday candles its like wishing on falling star and next thing you know its reality. Its so unbelievable, still. Imagine someone that has a smile that you feel could save the world, a hug that puts you in a coma, a hug that's like one in a movie or a love story where you cannot see anything else around you and like you're deaf you cant hear all the chaos and noise going on around, being in that persons presence makes you feel like the only one around that you really matter and even if its only for a minute you feel like you've been in their arms for an hour, a feeling that I've never felt before and then afterwards you break because it was like you were holding your breath for the time trying to figure out when you were going to wake up and then he says your name and you gasp for I never thought my name would come out of his mouth. Those eyes, that smile, his arms...I was in them. Its so surreal and I still don't know how to believe it. It really was a dream come true, and I am never the lucky kind. He would be Alex Skolnick.

I don't know if they all realize how much of an impact they put on some peoples lives but definitely mine he has made a huge impact on. I look up to him, hes my idol, hes my...God. I believe in him, worship the ground he walks on, he is amazing and amazing is and understatement. He is just as wonderful in person as he seems to be, hes smart, which nothing is more attractive than intelligence. He's very musically talented, obviously being in three bands. He writes incredibly. Hes the kind of man that you make up in your mind for being the perfect and dream man the one that really doesn't exist, but this one does, he does and hes my dream man and I got to see him face to face, he touched me, he knows my name. That doesn't just happen, it does but in dreams and I just had a dream come true and that means more than the world to me.

"Turn Around
Turn Around and fix your eye in my direction
So there is a connection
I can't speak
I can't make a sound to somehow capture your attention
I'm staring at perfection
take a look at me so you can see
how beautiful you are

you call me a stranger
you say I'm a danger
but all these thoughts are leaving you tonight
I'm broke and abandoned
you are an angel
making all my dreams come true tonight

I'm confident
but I can't pretend I wasn't terrified to meet you
I knew you could see right through me
I saw my life flash right before my very eyes
and I knew just what we'd turn into
I was hoping that you could see
take a look at me so you can see

you call me a stranger
you say I'm a danger
but all these thoughts are leaving you tonight
I'm broke and abandoned
you are an angel
making all my dreams come true tonight

you are an angel
making all my dreams come true tonight

take a look at me so you can see
how beautiful you are
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your beauty seems so far away
I'd have to write a thousand songs to make you comprehend how beautiful you are

i know that I can't make you stay
but I would give my final breathe to make you understand how beautiful you are
understand how beautiful you are

you call me a stranger
you say I'm a danger
but all these thoughts are leaving you tonight
I'm broke and abandoned
you are an angel
making all my dreams come true tonight

you call me a stranger
you say I'm a danger
you call me a stranger"

This song describes it perfectly! Stranger by Secondhand Serenade♥

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